why? why must you do this to me? can't you just let me be what I am, what I want to be? why must you just keep throwing these blows at me, leaving bruises on my heart? you want me to be happy, but don't you see that what you are doing is just making me feel all the worse? it's not everything, you know. life is so much more than just this. so, I'm begging you, please. please. please. stop it. I'm sorry.
ok and on a really diff note, mugging is not going too well with me. I tried drawing up a study plan, but I'm so not following it. history was supposed to be yesterday, and philo today, but I'm still somewhere on that stewpid raffles and farquhar-(muahaha)- and capital punishment hasn't glanced my concious memory since last friday. uh basically, I'M SO SCREWED. byebye 4.0s. not like I had the slightest chance of getting any anyway. and math is so starting to freak me out. what happened to 1+1? now it isn't even like 2xsquare-3x-108, it's like 3tothepowerofx-1 and (125tothepowerofonethird)tothepowerof2 kinda thing.
bleagh and I feel like saying whatever, shakespeare, you and your sonnets. and in summarising I just can't seem to get enough content. well it depends whether I am lucky. once I got 5/15 immediately followed by a 16/20. hmm I shall try to figure that out some other time. let's see, what else... oh yes chinese. oh well I always sucked in that. um chem, no MYAs (yet, I think) and I suppose I'll finally get why calcium is 2.8.8.2 someday haha. err history I really deproved this year, last year it rocked my second mostest. and is thus replaced by geog, which kinda sucked last year though I liked it, but improved this year. yay 4.0 for SA! I'm not sure for MYA though, I think I'll just freak out and like write that deforestation is bad coz it simply sucks and screws up the world or something heh.
[oh and I still don't get why I wasn't freaked out for psle! nor my first syf, though that doesn't count because noone really cared (sadly) heh but we ended up getting the first gold in our band's history anyway and were super high!]
hmm did I miss anything out? oh yes feelo! ok I don't see the point of having a philo paper. ok so I know capital punishment is ethically justified in cases of murder. who cares why? like we're not gonna grow up to go around saying "oh there is nothing wrong with peeling potatoes but lets examine it using normative theories. firstly, we can say that it is ethically wrong through the judgement of the rights theory because the potato has a right and we are violating that right by peeling it..." or whatever crap right? oh well. shall go mug now. :( byebye.
