loadsofstuff
Tuesday 30 September 2008 ;
17:55:00
ok as you can see, I've loads of stuff to blog about. and like I said before, I always forget the stuff way before I have access to the comp, but yay this time I wrote point form. xD couldn't help forgetting some stuff when I had no access to pen and paper though. and omg that's like so anal right.

long post coming along! ok first, photossss! argh blogger sucks at uploading, so go facebook yay. http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=42511&id=670003192

ok next thing, I cannot cannot cannot talk about mugging and generally academic stuff with sam and jess okay. :/ just like, not same wavelength la haha. they're like wayyy up there. mhmm. and then I'm prob so low down you lost sight of me. ok not that I can reach their standards in other stuff like music either. :/

ok I have a new life philosophy besides the vacuum cleaner one. you don't have to be good, just be your best. (: just made it yesterday, so hope I can live by it haha. *predicts moaning about my uselessness again sometime soon*

HAHAHA the six pack dilemma! xD ask me if you really want to know that much. :p and I have an ant dilemma. if you accidentally instinctively half-squished an ant such that you know that it's injured but still alive, would you continue to squish it until it dies or just let it go? and if it's the latter, to what extent of injury would you rather just kill it instead? and angie you sadist omg. haha this is so moral dilemma-ish. film cluster! sigh, we die.

ok you know I realised how similar it is. yet I'm kinda reacting so different. ok that doesn't make sense I know. ignore me.

argh I need to mugmugmug. I haven't STARTED physics, geog, history. now dyou have an idea of how screwed I am? I'm not even gonna bother mugging english and chinese please. and I've been spending all my time on maths argh. barely started chem. yet I'm not even done with maths. ohwell. I WILL MUG LATER. shall destress now first. (:

you know, it wasn't until lately that I realised how awesome our adoration room is? confi retreat reflection walk, to be exact. it's just so, peaceful la. I think if I have the time to, I might just go there every week from now on. and I shall drag yall with me muahaha! if not it's always only me and ter pft. jo! why dyou not want to go there that bad! ohyes next week black yah! can mourn the start of my EOYs. D: favourite emo colour haha.

and omg we so totally must have a catclass chalet! argh but I bet a lot of our parents won't allow. D: like, hello, we're not gonna be doing anything weird pelase. O.o but I wanttt. and deprived ppl who have never gone for chalet with friends, I'm sure you want to! haha ohman. try la k! go beg after EOYs.

which reminds me, batch chalet! ((: lovelovelove. just try not to uh watch as much tv as usual haha. ohno, am I supposed to book the hometeamNS ome? O.o I think I only can on nov 1st leh. and on the topic, section chalet! ((: we didn't have last year. ): and hooray for potential chaodar stuffs with us being top batch this year! :p I can just imagine jess. :/ "oh look, it's turning black, so cute! omg it just caught fire! :D poke it poke it, so cute!" O.o haha which somehow links to, conbined section outing! as in like, raffles combined slww, not rgssb combined sections. haha though there's kinda a high chance it's not even gonna happen.

if I haven't already mentioned it somewhere, PEARLYN IS BUSTING HER FREE SMSES LIKE CRAZY. seriously, I think this is my record month. in my whole life. I prob busted like several hundred? and it's inching ever so slowly towards the end of the month and if I don't sms I'll prob suffer withdrawal haha. what with the stress and all.

haha this is random, but I haven't found anyone who writes algebra x's like me! like most ppl do the closebracket, openbracket sorta thing right. I go like, squiggly diagonal line from top left to bottom right, then straight line from top right to bottom left. whoever does so too, highfive! :D (I kinda doubt there's anyone)

and I haven't been to fareast for eons and eons and eons omg. seriously. we-ll. haha and I'm still on my sweettalk boycott! loves bishan $1 bubble tea. :D and cheesecake and other relevant persons! we must go sneaker and cargoes and jeans and and whatnot shopping after EOYs! and uh begin prom-stuff searching! haha a bit the early. but sec4 is so crazy and hectic la. except this period of time for them haha.

OH and I realised what xinle's wrong-sounding word is! like you know samseah drags her short syllables like oh sheet right, and xinle's is the opposite? and we vaguely remembered that there was smth she said that sounded bad/wrong and we thought it was workshit (read: worksheet)? yeah I think I finally rmb what it was, cos she said it today! it was BEACH! go figure. mr ng thought she was swearing hahahaha.

and omg, you know I left my hoodie in 314 over the weekend, then when I went there to take it back on monday, it smelt like mutton! like seriously. not the fresh-from-the-farm, right-at-the-farm kind though. haha anw, realised today it was JULIA's hoodie! oops. haha it felt bigger, and the sleeves felt tighter (which kinda don't go together right -.-) and I realised it was M haha. so, julia! why does your hoodie smell like lamb. O.o

and OI! what potential partners hurhhurhhurh. -.-" and tell me! pft. don't fwen you. D:

HAHA omg english today was amusing. apparently sec1 essays are super funny.
"the doctor came out of the room. he shook his head and said, 'I'm sorry, your father has become a vegetarian.' 'ohno,' I cried. 'my father has become a vegetarian, all because of me!'" OMG HAHA DAMN FUNNY LA! xD and she has started describing us with different levels of death: living dead, undead, and dead lol.

and minyee's damn funny thing haha.
*spooky voice*
[insert town name] was a peaceful, quiet town, until one day...
'hello?'
'I'm watching youuu...'
'ohmygad!'
HAHA it's damn funny when she does it la, can't capture it here.

omg longgggg post! haha sorry. doubt many ppl will read my boringness anw. yeah and another random point, er I think the raging hormones thingy is kinda getting applicable to a lot of ppl LOL. xD


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I'm Yours
Wednesday 24 September 2008 ;
22:39:00
But I won't hesitate no more,
No more, it cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
Were just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

whoo! I think I'm Yours is a song you take a couple of times to like but when you do you love it. anw, argh SSPT. sighhhhh. attempting to do by today. ATTEMPTING. sure cannot one. ok mugging progress: math up to functions, still need some clarifications. chem just started, KPT, stuck at ideal gas law. phys nonexistent. everything else too.

anw, random. I think I am an easily jealous person hm. I can't really classify of what, but I'm pretty sure it's not materialistic. like uh company experiences attention proximity? go figure. :/ I have no idea myself. there's just that frequent splitsecond subconscious pang that assures me it exists.

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed


-light my way


>.<
Tuesday 23 September 2008 ;
19:54:00
ok I hope scrunch faces can AT LEAST work in the title.

mugging=screwed. 2days and I'm still stuck on indices&surds, which is *claps* the first topic. -.- die la die. and ss pt is still floating in its non-existent state.

HALP ME. ok I shall go ask a kind soul to help with surds questions later. er something tells me I'm gonna have to end up using msn handwriting feature to draw surds. :/

and today was our last pe lesson with mr tan! D: haha the video is damn funny. (: and the photos are lol.

OI! *whacks entire cat class in turn* ok sorry couldn't be bothered to type individual names. stop calling me weird things! and anw, green next week yeah! :D yeah everyone must go ok! can mug together again! (we-ll. I did mug. a bit.) and go for exam prayer session on sat!


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to mug or not to mug
Saturday 20 September 2008 ;
18:21:00
like there's even a choice. but I need the freaking motivation ahhhhhh!

anw tmr! :D red+massmug! makes no sense to most right.

and argh I've been cut off from the comp for sooooo long. pft password. pft screwed-at-the-worst-times internet. and because of my short term memory *applauds* I've forgotten whatsoever I wanted to blog over the past week. RAWR.

oh there's one. I love jess!
"LIFE.
a sexually transmitted disease.
100% fatal."
haha! and sex ed is useless. like there isn't much they can teach us that we don't already know?

oh yes and my vacuum cleaner philosophy has been adopted by clarissa and is actually known by some ppl. :D *egos* haha but I really think it's a good philosophy to live by. [which reminds me, film cluster is screwed argh]

what else what else argh. oh well. PEARLYN GO MUG. *slaps*
omg whut. I'm stalked?


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splish
Monday 15 September 2008 ;
21:13:00
ok sorry no idea what to name the post heh.

omggg whoops my previous post was my 100th post! *belated celebration*

haha anw, dropped by to say I am such a lucky person. in another person's shoes, I could be struggling with peer pressure and bad influence friends who bug me to go out instead of study. but hoho, I have the privelege of having good influence friends and facing the pressure to mug! lol.

and walao they can mug and have lives. I don't mug still no life. D: hahaha.

oh and facebook photo comments are suddenly very lively! some interesting ones:
(though you probably have to know some inside stuff to get most of it haha)

the joanne scandal: http://www.new.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=824149&id=706912293

omggg I KEEEL YOU GUYS:
http://www.new.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=835132&id=756419747

HAHA: http://www.new.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=1278924&id=707762539

OMG what is this again: http://www.new.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=942737&id=670003192

haha ok I actually had a lot more than that but I figured these were the more interesting ones la hahaha.

AND ALL YOU PEOPLE OF THE WORLD. GO DOWNLOAD WINDOWS LIVE PLUS NOW. then my nick won't look weird to you and you can have cool nicks too! [and they have orange font! :DDDDDDD]

haha now to be goodly-influenced. I actually wrote a mugging schedule! but judging by the time I just spent on the comp, it's gonna fail.


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313 RUBGY ALL BLACKS!
Sunday 14 September 2008 ;
23:35:00
a very belated picture post dedicated to my awesomezzz rugbymates!








like, the only bunch of all-blacks!














ALL STARS, people! :D









and our very famous (history-based :O) slogan of...








PEACE!













BREAD! ignore the mr tan hahaha.














LAND! (with the random angie)














LAND! (without the random angie)
once again ignore the mr tan lol.













AND MAMY POKO PANTS! :DDD











I love this photo omggg. (:

ohyes and since I'm here, windows live plus rocks omg. it's a whole new world! haha /amazed. /gasp. /whathaveIbeenmissingallalong. ohyeah and I am on an attempted mugging spree kay. all who see me straying, please slap me. (figuratively la oi!)


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Confirmation
;
12:10:00
I can't believe it's over!

yesterday was quite fun haha. met at market, thought I was late, but ended up the earliest. SO EXPECTED MAN. we have a very ahempunctualahem cat class haha. then ju came (eh I didn't know he was coming!), then nat, then jo looking wildly (and blindly) around for us even though we were waving our arms like mad chickens, then ter was last haha. well technically chng was last la, but he had smp!

ok somehow decided not to eat at market -.- so walked to frolick and bought yoghurt! haha nat got the parental advisory badge and I got the -kiwi- the fruit, stupid one. haha realised it's quite a waste of money, but ohwell. (: then went rk and ju and ter ate rotiprata haha. and chng appeared in sch formal u I think? and nat was like omg are you wearing that for confirmation! haha. yeah so hung around, threatened joanne about ahem, then nat had to leave. D: so we started walking to chng's house, taking the er longer way? for some reason. wah damn hot. haha and joanne and I were like taking turns to say that and reply with like "must be me right" and "not interested" haha.

arrived, and joanne stared screaming about the 3 dogs hahahahaha. I think they're damn cute! but the small one's really noisy haha, and the lighter one seems to be its disciplinarian lol. like everytime the small one yaps it'll like GLARE hahahaha then it will shut up for a while. omg so cute! :D yupp so slacked about his room for quite a long while haha. when we went in joanne was like "ooh, a guy's room!" hahaha. oh and we did the whole smsing thing (ohmycrap I hope he isn't really pissed) and argh I think the number is still stuck in my head, all your fault ju. haha and I think chng's sis LOVES joanne.

ok then jo and I disappeared to the toilet to change first, and we spent like, 20 mins haha cos we were like "ahh don't wanna go out don't wanna go out" "I want nat here too!" "ohmytian we should have just all the girls met first". but we finally went out la haha. and did makeup, which was super unobvious but who cares, I'm not gonna go around looking like some wayang thing. then the guys finally went to change haha (ju left to go home and change, he was gonna go impersonate haha!) and tadahh we were late! as usual. oh chng's mum fetched us there. (: thanks!

um didn't manage to camwhore haha. went to dump bag in church, then a couple of dry runs. then it was spiritual prep at parish hall. ju borrowed a tie and snuck in haha. did some reflection, P&W, and then when they were like "as we sing this last song..." and we were like omg so fast? omgomgomg emo! D: then went down and blablabla, camwhored a bit, etc. then it was like IT omg. so walked in, totally unsynchro with bev oops heh. ohwhells. then was confi mass, rite of confi and everything, and very sadly there wasn't much feeling. [ok I shall elaborate on this later I think]

yeah then cohort photo, which us vertically challenged ppl were so smartly at the back -.- and I couldn't find a hole haha so I bet I can't be seen in this one either. D: then camwhoring, not a lot ): and then our families stole us, and I had family photos at parish hall haha. (oh I forgot, we saw ____!) yeah then went to have dinner at some zhicha place. ohyeah and I practically ripped off my skirt blouse heels even earrings to wear the ohsocomfortable jeans and tee. :D haha.

ok anw, I think that I'm a very interesting psychological case study. argh I don't feel like elaborating now, here. ok basically I feel good at the slightest weirdest things and bad at the slightest weirdest things, and I tend to judge on tiniest oddest things and sometimes unfairly. hm go figure.

I HAVE A MUGGERFREAK CATCLASS OMG THIS IS SO FREAKY. like mass convo then everyone suddenly planned to mug together and actually did! and ter the freakyshit person who has resolved to mug 4 hours a day everyday and is actually following that resolution. like O.o. like firstly, him mugging. (haha no offence d:) then, like everyday. then like, 4 hours?! like. what is the world coming to. '-O-O-' mugggg. I shall try later. and they all got style one la! must have pillow, food, drink... [hahaha misha omg haha. why that name?]

yeah anw (sorry not very coherent and organised post), I'm super sad confi is over. you know all those events, it's the same. cadenza, confi etc. like the months of prep it's like excited yet freaked out, then as it draws nearer comes sadness cos I love the whole feeling of the leading up to it part, then the event itself is like detachment and stoneness, then after comes the floaty syndrome, until it sinks in, the the next few days/weeks is this sense of emptiness. it's really quite sad. and I love my cat class omg. the few of us at least haha. we are SO having reunions. group 8 too ya!

PEARLYN CHUA YOU NEED TO MUG. LIKE SERIOUS. not for the ice cream. not for anything material. like, for self-satisfaction? guilt-clearing? oh that sucks. for results. for, I dunno la.

argh I'm not making sense again. this means it's time to stop.


-light my way


Confirmation Retreat
Sunday 7 September 2008 ;
22:36:00
haha my uber long posts are returningggg! although it was only like one and a half days haha. and I shall leave the homework rants to the end heh. *squinch*

ok so. woke up at 7.30 despite yelling at myself (internally of course) to wake up at 7 the previous night. [um technically that morning, I slept at 2.30 after happily starting packing at 12.30 :D] anw my body alarm clock is interesting, this isn't the first time that I ended up waking up later than I wanted to but in the end making it in perfect time. some subconcious thingy la haha. anw, met joanne at macs (she was late!) and turns out neither of us really felt like eating haha but so as to not waste the trip there I made her share with me a... drumroll... happy meal! haha we didn't take the toy btw. anw, shouldn't have wasted money la hahaha. I ate like 1 hotcake and joanne ate like 0.00004395071586 of the other one. -.-

haha anw I was still looking forward to the walk to church heh. so weird right. but morning walks are good. (: haha it was quite cold btw, we were wearing hoodies (with shorts so it's a little weird). met candice at the busstop waiting for valerie and she was begging us to wait with her so we did haha. in the end so late not early that we didn't get bag-checked lol. um um what happened next. ohya same groups as june camp. :D my group added jordan though, cos he wasn't there for june camp. then went parish hall, dumped our stuffs, sat in groups. no icebreakers or anything haha duh. we had FOUR facils! :O and aloy didn't come for this camp aw. but gracemary did cos she felt bad about pangsehing us haha. :D

um ok I shall just talk about sharings in general now haha cos there weren't that many anw and they were mostly around the same: facils asking questions, us giving model answers (most of the time), and end up it's a facil sharing a personal story haha. ok this is bad I don't rmb a lot of stuff. :/ I just know the whole camp was quite intensive haha. ohya and I shared every single meal with someone or other (except breakfast) and even so we never managed to finish a single one haha. ano whee!

ok sessions. ohno I seriously can't really rmb ohman. but I think they were all quite fine la haha. except the very last one. (the one where we did the 68 question thingy -.-) um what else. oh praise and worship! :D haha I think every camp it's the same, they intro new songs to us, we usually don't get them at first, but a few after a couple of times we start liking them, a few we just totally don't get it. then people always go high on the songs we know well haha. oh likelike zomg you know I was like "ohmannn I want shout to the Lord." then we started doing shout to the Lord zomg haha. and THEN I was like "whoo! if only they did prince of peace also. " and we started doing prince of peace ZOMGZOMG. I rock. (:

oh and pearlynLAU and I have some freakycrap mo qi omg. last camp we both wore obs shirt on the same day and similar white shorts. this camp we both wore obs shirt on the same day and similar dark grey shorts. omg scary la. and not to mention the cafe cartel thingy haha. I was like sitting with my family (after being dismissed from camp) and then I suddenly got an sms from her saying "look right." so I did and it was a wall haha. so I replied that and she was like "left." and it turned out she was on a table to my left haha.

what else. oh bathing. haha me the genius didn't bring a towel! zomgoo. nor a comb haha but I'm used to overlooking that so I survived. haha I borrowed joanne's towel which she so nicely dried for me while I was bathing haha. (: sorry and thanks! and there was hot water omg whoooo! I wonder if the guys had haha. oh and I still don't get how people bathe together omg. O.o like candice and valerie, and vivienne and samantha. don't you feel like insecure haha.

oh and prayover/praying with! I fell asleep during reflection again ohman. *whacks self* seems like I do that whenever we do reflection in the parish hall on chairs with the lights off. ohyes and michelle (is it?) has a BEAUTIFUL voice. (: and ohmygoodness tongues is this huge mix of freaky and cool ok. like the facils were surrounding us with michelle leading and suddenly like a lot of them broke out into tongues and they were all speaking different things at the same time. it's like :O really. then it was praying with which sadly I didn't feel anything again. I mean, not didn't feel anything la, just like nothing really happened. some people got slain I think. but I guess I felt more touched than the previous ones. and we sang Holy Spirit fall on me. (:

ok I think that's all. NO WAIT HOW COULD I FORGET SLEEPING! haha. once more we wanted to go grotto (but it was raining D:) and I think they really sent people there leh. haha but after a while I didn't really feel like anymore. and omg so many ppl were talking on their phones in their sleeping bags la omg haha. and vivienne was talking damn loud! haha at least I'm not so obvious la. I just smsed lol. it helps to have a thick sleeping bag and a hoodie to bury your head and your phone in haha. anw not bad, I slept around... 1 plus? and I woke up at 3+ and saw a sms from darrell saying that he woke up at 2+ haha but I think he went back to sleep. yeah anw I managed to sleep again until 6, you know when the stirring and exaggerated whispers begin. (it's always half an hour before the time we're supposed to wake up argh) and as usual joanne and her five more minutes haha. but vivienne woke up fine lol.

haha ok I should think that's technically all about camp. then it was confirmation mass rehearsal! (it was quite a waste of time heh) and OMG WHY ON EARTH AM I WALKING IN FIRST AHHHH. O.o at least it's with beverly haha. (: [random interjection] haha which reminds me of the disproportionate thing hahahahahaha omg hahaha see la all your fault hahahaha. [/random interjection] yeah anw. the order is like random apparently. cos if it was by height joanne should be in front! :p haha. and shayne shouldn't be in the front row lol. haha anw he's the first getting confirmed whoo. so at least I'm not. :D our row is quite squishy haha but it's fine. joanne said hers very spaced out then feel so antisocial haha. yeah anw rehearsal was basically along the lines of walk in walk out walk in walk out. somemore first row had to keep doing a lot of stuff while the rest could sit. but shayne had to do the most haha cos he's first. I laugh. :D and the anthony thing hahahaha.

ok anw I shall just say that got a lot of hw la argh. like one more du shu bao gao. rawr.


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ohmycrap
Friday 5 September 2008 ;
00:52:00
argh I am so screwed so screwed. I have like chinese summary, one more du shu bao gao, THE WHOLE OF ASSASSPEETEE SS PT, alot of math, alot of chem, alot of phys, alot of geog (I think) etc etc to do. AND maths and hist to mug. all within my happy tmr morning, which I prob would be too tired anw since I totally zonked myself with 3 consecutive dance lessons today, and sunday aftnoon. cos tmr aftnoon to evening got aspen argh which I find the holiday classes quite useless and a waste of money sorry. still considering quitting. and sat to sun got confirmation retreat.

and since I'm on that topic, it's the last ever confi camp! D: and confi is next sat omgomg seems so surreal too. joniiiiii I need to borrow heels! haha anw I think this camp's gonna be really spiritual. and it's only 1 day. D: but I think we're getting june camp groups back. :D group8=love! and I don't care we're having reunions. (: oh andandand I reallyyy hope you can find your faith. many ppl have had doubts sometime or other, and it's never too late to return. I'm sure He will help you if you are willing to accept Him. (:

argh and I'm a bit the pissed now also cos my mum happily threw me off the comp and started hogging it and totally doing the "10 minutes!" "10 minutes!" "last one!" "last one!" "no really, last one!" "one more!" thing argh damn annoying. and I was like are you going to finish by tmr then I realised it WAS tmr. -.- and it made me dao ppl I was halfway talking to rawr. sorry.

haha anw. OMG why do you have such old photos! O.o haha I don't think I'm in it, it was prob the rehearsal I was sick. awman. xD ohoh and I know the girl in the middle middle haha cool. and the guy at the middle back looks familiar hm. whatever. I'm still damn amused. :D haha at that time got class photos meh? I don't even rmb haha. oh I vaguely rmb a green uniform whee haha. at least I think so. cos that can't be pap. [ok I am monologueing haha]














[edit] and please, please. [/edit]


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randomness continued
Thursday 4 September 2008 ;
02:00:00
haha and I forgot to add! there are the people who are nicer in person, those who are nicer over sms and those who are nicer on msn haha.

ok I really am very random. and awake. at this time. argh.

haha and I'm seriously very amused at the immense tinyness of this world. damn cool haha.


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randomness
Wednesday 3 September 2008 ;
22:02:00
haha ok I'm ok now. :D

I made some interesting observations. girls can be split into two categories: those who you talk to (both phone and msn) just to ask abt hw or stuffs and then both parties just clam, and those who you just go on and on and on and then when you run out of stuff to say abt smth one of you just randomly changes topics and then you go on and on again. and guys can be split into: those who are nice/interesting to talk to, those who are ok/interesting in an infomative manner(?) to talk to, and those who you quite avoid talking to.

ok that was random. nvm. *grins* yupp I'm really ok now. (:


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untitled
Tuesday 2 September 2008 ;
22:22:00
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got nowhere to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away

ok I guess this isn't the only or most appropriate time I would quote these lyrics, but.

today probably falls under the category of the screwed up days of my life. you know those that bring you on an emotional roller coaster then dump you away when you're at the lowest point. and such that it's worse cos the drop is even greater if you started at a high point.

and that's besides the fact that today was almost a total waste of time, hanging out online and doing nothing useful. well depending on how you define useful.

I guess I was flung around, from happy to sleepy to hopeful to hungry to sian to amused to achieved to useless to disappointed to amused to useless to generally high to way low. btw there are actual events that mark each of that (though maybe the order is screwed) but I'm not gonna name them.

you know the time when I mentioned I hate being locked out? (if I did mention it) I realised that sometimes I wish I was. ignorance is bliss, how many times have I said that, but only when the situation is one way? if I turn it the other, I should have realised that I wouldn't see it the same way. I should edit that saying then: ignorance is bliss, once you know what you want to be ignorant of. which totally doesn't make sense. so happy living in this screwed up world where you either feel pissed and wish you weren't in the dark or bish yourself repeatedly and wish you were in the dark when you come across something you don't want to see/hear/know.

but I maintain my stand on this other thing I mentioned (actually I think I never really mentioned it). I wish everyone were two-dimensional. you know how much easier the world would be to live in if everyone was happily simple? no double meanings, no unexpected depth of emotion. no offence meant to anyone at all, but you know when you always thought someone was just so cute and innocent and suddenly they wham you with something you totally never expected to come from them. and I'm not just talking sickness or whatever here. ok I think I am quite flat (no wrong meaning intended) and naive. and ap and stupid and useless and a generally sucky person. anyway not the point.

but that leads back to the ignorance is bliss thing again. so what's easier, to believe that someone is as easy (I'm sorry, loss of words) as you think when they actually aren't, or to know and have the full force of them not being so? ok this post is actually totally missing the point I was gonna blog about.

no I seriously don't think I'm pissed with you. I'm just, confused I guess. and like a little kid, wishing for it all to just end happily ever after. there are times that I don't even think that it is possible for things not to end that way, so much so that if they don't I am totally caught off-guard.

ohyes another thing. I seriously don't understand the fuss people make of things sometimes. sorry that wasn't supposed to sound mean. I mean like, okay, it's not the end of the world, so get over it already. pick yourself up and continue with life as best as you can, whatever happened. and it's not even that big a thing. I mean yes, it's definitely a significant thing, but why not try to not see it in that way. things can go on as they did in all other aspects.

and also, yes I have been feeling your stress over the past weeks. it's following you around like this aura, showing in whatever else you do. and honestly, I'm really sorry for you and I wish I could help, but I don't think I'm like in any position to offer. not when I'm managing my own life so terribly anyway.

and I get why you feel that way cos you told me, but on the other hand I don't really get it. so just because _, you _? wait, no right. it's the whole thing right.

incidentally, I think I suffer from some social rejection/neglection problems. which contributes to the e in esfp I guess, and the fact that I probably wouldn't survive without friends, and that I am getting seriously dependent on a lot of people even if you don't know it. and the puppy dog syndrome, like I kind of feel a need to please everyone, so much so that it hurts when I know someone is pissed/disappointed with me. to a certain extent.

and I hate myself for being insensitive and selfish. there are many things which I do and realise too late that I shouldn't have done, and there are also the things which I know beforehand that I shouldn't do but do anyway for my own... pleasure? crap sorry I can't find the word for it. oh, sake. like this, for example. I sincerely hope that I'm not hurting anyone, but it always feels good to let things out.

and shit the irony. (it doesn't help that everytime I see this word now I'm gonna think of that, which will in turn probably bring along a string of painful reminders) I'm blogging something which might hurt people against people who blog things that hurt people. shut up, pearlyn.

conclusion: I hate myself. and various aspects of this world we live in.

but never forget the half-powered vacuum cleaner. I should be a famous quoterer. quotist. whatever.

and I still love you dears. I'm hoping the mutualism exists. (that word does not exist by the way)

as it happens, I'm not gonna bother colouring this post. it's like trying to give out pretty balloons as a last ditch attempt to salvage a ruined birthday party. not the best of analogies, I know, but it's better than my original "conceal a corpse with candy". you know what, I may just decide to stop colouring my posts altogether. save the eyes of people. nah, I will colour when I'm back and happy again. repeat: NAIVE.


-light my way


REACT!
Monday 1 September 2008 ;
23:20:00
haha waitt first: baking! ok forget it I shall just say
1) all things that spit seriously hate me. even eggs. O.o
2) it smudged. D:
3) it burnt. D:
4) boiled dates stink.
5) blueberry morning! :D
6) 1st-3rd eggs: half-cooked, liquid but white eggwhite. 4th egg: UNCOOKED. liquid, mostly transparent eggwhite. (no prizes to guessing who's the freakazoid who ate/drank it) 5th egg: mostly cooked. solid eggwhite, liquid yolk. 6th egg: FULLY COOKED. :D sucess. and obviously the last 2 eggs are thanks to me. :D sam I tell you your egg steamer weird gadget thing doesn't work la.
7) QUOTES! :D "excuse me, sorry, where can I get dates?" "personal egg time" heh.

ok now react! haha fun la, seriously. definitely better than last year. ok seeing that I can't even really rmb what happened last year. haha all three of them were in games comm, so they left lunch early. and [correction] three [/correction] of the ri guys pangsehed pft. ohkayy crap I have a problem with names haha oops. I can't rmb a few of our section's and I realised too late that I nvr knew some of our grp's at all. haha at least it improved from last year when all guys look the same HAHA. ohoh anw I think the lowersec uppersec diff thing is damn amusing la. ohyes I rmb smth omg damn cool la gloria and I both burst out in the wham saxsolo at the exact same time for no particular reason with no external stimuli (but in diff pitches haha). MO QI!

ok I need to organise this post better. ok like there were basically two main parts. sectionals/combined: feel inferior! (not to mention small but nvm) and anw I hope they realise he's right. but at that time I would probably have felt similarly la. ahh everyone! work on tone! and volume! ah! ohno. ok let's go ask for advice whee haha so weird. but still. and I bet _ ___ __ ____ _______ ________ dot! ok nvm random. haha I think the appalachian (ohmycrap how to spell) overture melody line is quite cute. ok wrong word choice. uh nice? haha anw ohcrap contacts. :p gloriaaaa. um argh I can't really rmb anything else significant.

um the other part is like games. haha broom! and our wonderful cheer which happily consisted of three words! :D liesrjwaopravwtu (sorry I can't rmb the lead lines) YEAH YEAH! srgoivutoptqajpg GREAT GREAT! eijhpvtawmtop WIN WIN! broooom vrooom! ok with the last two it's five words la haha. ok pingpongball game was like okay, except for the realisation I made too late but I doubt it la so nvm. TOOTHPASTE GAME zomgooo. and they used sticky kids toothpaste which doesn't rub off like normal toothpaste so it like didn't even get halfway down the line. haha and it was quite weird. at least no tennisball game! um next was what ah. oh flourkeypad game. haha kangjie and I selflessly volunteered to roll in the flour. not that bad la haha batch chalet one was worse right muahaha. I laugh. um then chair game I think. like variation of the scissorspaperstone running one. sweaty hanky! *scrunch eyes* my luck damn bad la, everytime first time lose alrd. I shall go research on scissorspaperstone human tendencies when I'm bored! um then oh the balloonbodyparts game. hahaha omg had some very wrong positions. and the bonus thing was damn funny la haha. and I got head back with xing ern. (ahya no matter what can't be worse than the churchcamp green stuff one where we had to rub it off aloy with various body parts) uh that's all I think. OH WAR GAMES! haha omg quite fun la, and damn tiring. and kangjie and I no mo qi, keep pulling each other in opposite directions. (ok actually I was the one pulling her most of the time heh) haha omg I must conclude that humans have very violent natures that are just waiting to burst free. haha I think their games skit was not bad, a lot more creative than our usual ones.

whee. I miss react. weirdly. HAHA omg they should make it overnight camp.

ohya onto the rjcsb thingy. ahh joanneLAI stop propagandaing me to join floorball! sekali you succeed argh. and street dance is quite cool haha. not like I can make it to either? but not like I'd make it in band anw. ahya see how things go la.


-light my way


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